today, im tired. weary from the emotional and physical strain. im laughing in spite of it, but still its there. the injury in my arm from some unknown cause is making me fiery and irritated, as i cant control the pain. the understanding of what has been going on in my family, from a recent conversation with my mother disclosing everything, has left me wounded and scared. i feel very powerless. very discouraged. i know its just the enemy trying to keep me down, but it is still just as real as ever. and it hurts so so much.